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"What business is it of yours?" Lucian shrugged. "Just wondering. I ain't never heard of a man taking as many baths as you have since you got home. It's a wonder we got any water left in the well." He dipped his finger into the water. "Damn, that water's hot." Clay slapped his hand away. "I like it hot."

  "That could scald a man."

  "Why don't you go on to bed and leave me in peace?" Lucian stretched his long legs before him and crossed one foot over his ankle. "I'm not tired."

  "Then why don't you leave so I can wash up and get out of the water?"

  "I ain't stopping you from washing up. Besides, I've seen your bare ass." He flicked the water toward Clay's face. "When did you get so damn modest?"

  "I didn't have any privacy while I was away. I'd like to have some now that I'm home."

  Lucian scraped his boots across the floor, planted his feet firmly on either side of the chair, leaned forward, and braced his forearms on his thighs. "You never talk about what happened while you were away."

  "There's nothing to talk about"

  "What'd you do while you were gone? You didn't sit on a tree stump and whittle."

  "No, I didn't whittle."

  "You didn't fight"

  "I didn't pick up a rifle and kill men if that's what you mean."

  "So what'd you do?"

  Clay sighed deeply. Since his return, no one had asked what he'd done during all the years he was away. So much had happened, and he wanted to forget most of it "They held me prisoner at a fort for awhile, doing anything the officers considered 'hard labor' to fill up the days and

  nights."

  Lucian studied the puncheon floor between his feet. "You think they'd have let you come home sooner if I'd written them that Ma and Pa had died?"

  "Probably not."

  Lucian glanced up, then dropped his gaze. "I thought

  about writing"

  "I don't think it would have made a difference." Slowly, he nodded as though giving himself time to

  contemplate his next words. He spoke cautiously in a voice

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  that reminded Clay of a child trying desperately to avoid a well-deserved whipping. "I wasn't afraid. I would have fought, but I had things to take care of here. I couldn't leave the twins, and I didn't have time to write"

  "You stayed where you were most needed. Nobody questions that."

  Lucian bolted from the chair. That's right I'm not like you. I'm not a coward." He swung an arm through the air as though he were lost in a dark cave and couldn't find his way to the sunlight. "Hell, you don't even fight back. You could at least have hit me."

  "I thought I did."

  "Hell, no. You didn't lay a finger on me."

  "Then why are you hurting?"

  Plowing his hands through his hair, Lucian stormed toward the door. "Christ, I don't know. I'm sleeping in the bam tonight" He slammed the door behind him.

  Clay groaned as the twins opened their bedroom door and peered out

  "What the heck's goin' on?" Josh asked.

  "Lucian's home. Go on to bed."

  The boys padded across the room to the bathtub. "Why the heck are you bathin'?" Josh asked. "It ain't Saturday."

  "I felt dirty after working with stone all day."

  "We feel dirty all the time. That ain't no reason to bathe. People bathe when they want to look nice for somebody. You sweet on Miz Warner?"

  "Did you say you were feeling dirty?" Clay asked.

  The boys exchanged glances.

  "Because if you are, I'll put you in this water as soon as I get out."

  "Nah, we ain't feelin" dirty. Not tonight."

  "You feeling sleepy? Because if you're not, I'm gonna put you in this water anyway."

  Both boys opened their mouths wide and yawned.

  "Get on to bed," Clay said.

  The boys trudged back to their room and closed the door.

  Clay grabbed the lye soap and scrubbed briskly. Leaning to the side, he reached for the towel. The front door opened, and Clay slid back into the water.

  "I came home to sleep in my bed," Lucian growled. "By God, I'm gonna sleep there."

  He slammed the front door, then slammed the door to the bedroom he shared with the twins.

  Clay waited until silence filled the house, the water turned cold, and the fire died in the hearth before he ventured from the tub.

  Celebrating was a risky undertaking in this house.

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  Chapter Nine

  It was torture to sit in silence as Clay worked.

  A thousand questions surfaced within Meg's mind as she watched him chip away the stone, piece by piece. She held her curiosity and tongue in check because she knew if she interrupted his concentration, he could turn the chisel at an incorrect angle, hit it harder than he should, or slam the hammer where he shouldn't.

  But it was torment to sit perfectly still while he moved with (hat steady, fluid rhythm that never faltered. His lean body emanated a controlled strength as he repeatedly swung the hammer and adjusted the angle of the chisel.

  He'd rolled up his sleeves, exposing his forearms. Meg watched in fascination as his muscles tightened until his arms looked as hard as the stone into which he cut. His large hands held the chisel and hammer with a death grip.

  Only his brown eyes were visible above the red bandanna. His gaze never strayed from the chisel. His thick, dark brows met above the bridge of his nose to form a deep furrow in his brow.

  He ignored the sweat trickling along his temple. His attention was focused solely on the stone and the tools he wielded with the expertise of a marksman.

  Just as early morning dew gathered on clover, beads of moisture coated the back of his neck. She imagined that it

  covered his throat as well, but the bandanna prevented her from seeing if it pooled within the hallow at the base of his throat. She watched as wet streaks appeared on his shirt.

  Heat permeated the shed. Even with the windows open and a slight breeze blowing through, the air was still hot Meg pressed her bandanna against her upper lip to blot the moisture that tickled her face.

  Every day she sat in the sweltering warmth watching him work. Every day she expected him to remove his shirt and give his body some release from the baking heat She had on occasion thought of suggesting it to him. She didn't want him to collapse.

  But more, she wanted to see his entire body tense and carry the strength that was so evident in his hands and forearms. She had the impression that his craft had carefully molded his entire body over the years until it was as finely tempered as his tools.

  His shirt hung loosely off his shoulders, his trousers were a shade too short. He'd grown taller and thinner since the day he'd stood on the outskirts of town watching his friends ride away. Yet his clothes could not conceal the intensity with which he worked. From the white hair at his temples to the worn soles on his boots, he gave himself up to what he was doing: he was merely an extension of his tools, using his mind, his imagination, and every muscle he possessed to take Nature's work of art and turn it into his own.

  Sometimes, she thought she might feel a keen sense of loss when he finally did complete the statue. She wasn't altogether certain that the finished monument could possibly cause the swelling emotions that she felt as she watched the fabric of stone unfold.

  Clay was a master at unraveling Nature's quilt and Meg often wished the townspeople could see the making of the

  monument because its creation seemed as significant as its completion.

  The clanging of metal against metal ceased. The furrows in his brow lessened, and he pulled down the bandanna. He took a deep breath and touched his fingers to the portion that remained after his latest efforts.

  She never could tell if he was pleased with the progress he was making. He stepped down from the stool and walked to the low table where he kept a bucket of water.

  Every question Meg had wanted to ask escaped her mind. She jerked her bandanna down, jumped up from the chair, and
clambered onto the stool so she could look closely at the silhouette. "This will be Kirk's head, won't it?" She swiveled her head around to meet Clay's gaze. "If you're going to make that silhouette the horse, you must intend for this one to be Kirk. Am I right?"

  A smile of appreciation slowly eased onto his face. "Yes, ma'am."

  She turned her attention back to the stone, and Clay watched her fingers touch the stone with reverence. He wondered how many times she'd touched her husband in the same manner.

  "His head wasn't this big," she said.

  "It won't be that big when I'm done. I like to leave plenty of stone to work with."

  She nodded in understanding. Clay lifted the wooden lid off the bucket and brought the dipper to his mouth. He let the water trickle slowly down his throat

  With each passing day, he stopped working more often just so he could watch her hop up from that chair, climb onto that stool, and touch the stone.

  He returned the dipper to the bucket and covered it so the dust and stone couldn't get into the water. Then he leaned one hip against the table and crossed his arms over his chest.

  He so enjoyed watching her excitement. He could hardly

  wait to begin working on the details.

  "Are you going to start carving his face?" she asked.

  "No, ma'am."

  "Why not?"

  "Because I want to wait until I have all the forms cut out."

  She didn't like his answer. He could tell by the rapid tapping of her foot Kirk had warned him about that When her foot starts tapping, I head for the hills till she cools

  down.

  He didn't think she was angry, just frustrated. In the past couple of months since he'd begun the project, he'd learned that his patience greatly exceeded hers.

  She stopped tapping her foot and tilted her chin. "I don't see why you can't work on his face. You know this is his face. It would be nice to go ahead and have it finished."

  Slowly, he shook his head. "I'll admit I'm tempted, but I know I need to get all the shadows shaped out before I start working on the details. When I'm working on the shapes, I have to keep the whole monument in my head, the relationship of each piece to the other. I don't want to lose that feeling before I've got everything cut down."

  "I don't think it would hurt to make one exception."

  "When you're making a quilt, do you start quilting as soon as you've finished sewing that first block?"

  She stuck out her tongue, and Clay chuckled. The action made her appear so young, almost like the girl she'd once

  been.

  "Want to make yourself useful?" he asked.

  Wrinkling her nose, she looked at the stone littering the ground. "You need the area cleaned?"

  "No, ma'am. The twins haul the stone out every evening. I need you for something more important." Picking up his tools, he walked over to the stone. "I have to create the

  horse and rider from memory, but the woman" He glanced up at her and smiled"will be much easier to carve because I have a model. If you're willing."

  Her face flushed. "You're going to start working on me? But you haven't finished the horse and rider."

  "I told you I work on the whole monument. I begin at the top and work my way down. Right now, I'd like to get the size and shape of the woman just right and mark her distance from the rider."

  "What would I have to do?"

  "Stand where I can see you and pretend you're holding a flag."

  She clambered down from the stool. "Where should I stand? Here?"

  He stepped onto the stool and tilted his head. "Move a little to your right."

  She took a step as small as a piece of chipped stone.

  "A little more," he said.

  She inched over, and Clay rubbed his eyes. They'd be here until evening. He climbed down from the stool and drew an X in the dirt near her feet "Stand here."

  He stepped onto the stool and looked at her. "Now, raise your arms so your hands are just below your chin."

  "Shouldn't I raise them above my head? I was handing Kirk the flag. I didn't want him to have to reach far for it."

  "I don't want anything to block the view of your face. It's more important than the flag."

  Blushing, she began to fidget

  "You're gonna have to stand still."

  She stopped squirming, but she looked as nervous as she had the first Sunday she played the organ in church.

  "All right, I need you to turn just a little to your left A little more. A little more. Perfect"

  "Is this so you can see my cars better?"

  He pointed toward the silhouette she'd identified as Kirk's head. "It's so he can see your ears better."

  She smiled. "Would it help if I brought some calico from home that I could drape down and pretend was the flag?"

  "It might. If your arms get tired, you can lower them. I'm not doing anything right now that will be messed up if you move, but it's easier if you're still."

  "I'm ready."

  Clay had always liked the natural look of stone. Plain and unadorned, it possessed a simple beauty. At this moment, though, he wished he had material that could hold the blue of Meg's eyes and the rosy glow of her cheeks. No matter how hard he worked, he'd never be able to capture her beauty in the granite, "you can blink," he said.

  "Oh." She released a light laugh. "I don't even think I was breathing. I don't know why I'm so nervous."

  "Maybe because I have to watch you so hard." He tapped the silhouette of Kirk's head. "Just look at this and ignore me."

  "Ignoring you is what I do best." She tilted her chin and focused her gaze on the stone. Clay took his own sweet time in not ignoring her. He allowed his gaze to travel freely from the top of her head to the tips of her toes. He studied every curve and line, and he wondered how he was going to concentrate on creating Meg's silhouette when he couldn't keep his mind focused on the task. It kept drifting away from her image cut in hard stone, and imagining her soft body against his palms instead.

  If God had given him a hunk of flesh and told him to carve it into any shape he wanted, he would have carved it so it looked exactly like Megwith her tiny waist and her narrow hips and those small ears.

  He wiped his sweating palms on his trousers. "Are you going to chip the stone away?" she asked as she leveled her gaze on him.

  He nodded. "I'm just adjusting my thinking since I don't have to rely on my memory."

  "Your thinking seems to be a mite slower than your memory."

  "I'll see if I can remedy that." He set the chisel against the stone and brought the hammer back. "Oh my God!" Meg cried.

  He jerked his attention from the stone and stared at her. She skittered to the other side of the stool and pressed her back against the stone. "It's Tom Graham."

  Clay glanced through the open door and saw a man walking toward the shed.

  "I can't let him find me here," she whispered harshly. He hopped off the stool and set his tools aside. "I'll see that he doesn't come inside." He strode past her, resisting the urge to shake her and ask what difference it would make if people discovered that she talked with him. Hell, she did more than talk with him. Sometimes, he suspected that she actually enjoyed his company. He was a damn fool.

  He stepped outside and squinted against the sunlight. "Afternoon."

  Tom Graham merely nodded. Slightly older than Lucian, he had a prominent Adam's apple that bobbed as he avoided Clay's gaze. The peach fuzz covering his chin looked as though it hadn't been shaved in a while. Holding a large piece of wood pressed against his side, he ran his finger over the raggedly curved edge that extended past his arm. "Lucian is out in the fields," Clay informed him. "Didn't come to see Lucian." Clay shifted his stance. "Well, the twins aren't about."

  "Didn't come to see them neither."

  Clay was about to tell Tom the mule was in the field, but he narrowed his eyes and studied the wood more closely. Tom had cut it into the shape Clay disliked most. "What can I do for you then?" he asked quietly.r />
  Tom wiped his eyes. "Our baby girl died. Dr. Martin said she was just born too soon. Weren't nothing he could do for her. Sally ain't stopped crying since. She wants a proper marker, but her pa says if I get one from you, he'll break it up. Hell of a thing when a man's hatred for another is greater than his love for his grandchild." He wiped his eyes again. "Anyway, I been trying to make a marker, but Sally wants special words on it, and I keep running out of room. Thought maybe you might show me how to cut the words in this here piece so I don't run out of room."

  "What words were you wanting?" Clay asked.

  With a shaking hand, Tom reached into his pocket and brought out a crumpled piece of paper. "She wants 'Here lies the sweetest bud of hope that ever to us was given.'" The young man's face reddened as he met Clay's gaze. "I don't know where Sally got that, but it's what she wants."

  Clay nodded solemnly. "My pa carved some headstones before he died. I think there's one with those words on it."

  Disbelief washed over Tom's face. "He did?" Then another somber truth hit him. "But it won't have our little girl's name on it. Sally named her, wants her name on the marker."

  "I can have Lucian carve the name and dates."

  "Didn't know Lucian did any carving."

  "He can carve lettering."

  Tom rubbed his scraggly chin. "Sally's father couldn't object to that, could he?"

  "I wouldn't think so," Clay said.

  "How much would I owe you?"

  "My pa didn't take money for headstones he made for

  children. We won't cither. When is she to be buried?"

  "Tomorrow morning. In that little cemetery beside the

  church."

  "I'll place the headstone on the church doorstep at dawn." Tom extended the crumpled paper toward Clay. "Here's

  all the information Lucian will need." Clay took the paper and turned to walk back into the shed. "I'm obliged to you," Tom said. "You didn't have to tell

  me about them headstones your pa made." Clay looked over his shoulder. "Wouldn't make me much

  of a neighbor if I hadn't, now would it?" Stepping into the

  shed, he stuffed the paper into his pocket. "Your father made some headstones before he died?"